m, but when i don't, i feel kind of wistful about the missed opportunities (social, mathematical, etc.) that i'm leaving behind in the city. i may have to come back and visit more frequently than i ever planned on doing.
but ultimately, i am exhausted, and i'm looking forward to going out to one of my california relax spots -- let's say the beach in pacifica -- and staring out at the ocean and the clouds and feeling the shoulders relax. and getting back into a life where i have enough mental energy to care about people and things and to play bridge and to go to the gym and all of these sorts of things.
now i just need to figure out how to get the most out of the remaining 40 or so hours i have in this city. we'll see. day nineteen.