day seven; i owe you a day, but i'm not getting behind, i promise. in many ways, day seven was the prototype day here in new york. i felt tired and stressed the whole day, but there was some upside: i got to see a friend i hadn't seen in a while, plus i again went to dinner at danielle's. i almost didn't do the last thing, because everyone but me was going to be couples and i wasn't sure i was in a strong enough mental state to handle happy relationships (so envious, i am, one of the many deadly sins it's easy to ascribe to me), but ultimately i decided that i needed some upside in the day, and that i should just do things. i'm very happy i went. sure, there were moments of sadness, especially watching the cute couple i had never seen before with their good-naturedly argumentative banter that i remember so well from many of my relationships, along with the complete comfort that only comes from having been with someone a long time. and of course danielle and dave. but i lived through it, and i of course enjoyed once again being around such spectacular people, and i'm glad i went instead of going home and crashing, which was plan b for tired tired me.
so that was day seven, more or less.
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