i know, i know, i haven't been blogging for this captive audience for some time and you may well have fought off your chains by now. there is, of course, the usual reason: i'm in this amazing relationship with this amazing girl who i'm currently on this amazing vacation in monterey with. and so all the usual effects, nothing out of the ordinary, pertain: i talk about everything with her and so it doesn't make it to the blog, no one wants to hear about people being happy (since it makes them feel worse about their lives and is inherently less interesting, anna karenina-style), my time is all spent on activities and none is left for blogging, etc..

the last is the really unique thing. in my entire life, it's been extremely rare that i've actually been able to fill my 15 waking hours. i always have some hours which end up devoted to boredom and/or depression and/or time-sucks. but amazingly, with this lifestyle, not only have i filled those 15 but i've filled another 2 of my 9 sleep hours, meaning that i'm underslept. i value sleep highly, but this is such a unique experience i don't even really mind.

oh, i almost forgot. the biggest reason i don't blog while in a happy relationship? fundamentally, i can't deny that blogging is a mating ritual. like everything else, it's a chance to show you who i am and maybe you'll like this person and maybe we'll live happily ever after and wouldn't that be nice. i don't think of it consciously this way (okay, i rarely think of it consciously this way), but if you think about it, it's a neat way for you to get to know me without any pressure or anything, since i don't even know you're there. in an amazing stroke of fate, this is what drew the love of my life to me, even before i was really aware of her existence.

but anyway, i think all blogs, all personal publicity, is either consciously or unconsciously some kind of mating ritual. and the fact that i don't really blog when in happy relationships -- not really on purpose, just that my instincts aren't to blog -- is as much due to that as to any of the reasons above.

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