it's been a week and my personality keeps oscillating wildly. half the time i'm relatively okay. half the time i'm depressed beyond belief. (sorry to use this blog as therapy instead of pumping out trenchant commentary on the spurious foibles of everyday life.)
it's really scary. i'm leaning on everyone i can find and i'm sure it's doing some good but it seems to be mostly local. when i'm alone i revert.
the problem is that no matter how wonderful i am (leaving that point of discussion aside for a bit), unless i can even find someone awesome again it's not relevant. because i'm not going to be happy with some B+ harlot. and studies have shown that when i do meet someone awesome it ends up in tragedy most of the time.