i think the weblog is a lot like a pet to me. it's something that i need to devote some minimal amount of time to to keep going as a continuous object; if i don't, it dies, but i can get a new pet though without the continuity. its importance in my life varies with how much else is going on; i need it for companionships during the more asocial periods of my life, while when i have people around i write much less.
i guess you could say i've gotten kind of bored of this pet. it really only does one thing: it talks about how it's not sure what its role in my life is, and about how it feels socially. to be honest it's kind of repetitive; i think i need a new personality for my pet, and the best way to do that is to get a new pet entirely. i'm not ready for the new pet right now; if i get it, i'll just try to project all the attributes of this old pet onto it. so i'm going to take a month off, and find something else. i'll be back on january 21.
in the meantime, if you've gotten used to no awkward silences between us because of the stupid pet tricks, i apologize for their absence. awkwardness, like most things, can be beautiful in its own right; it's precious, since it can't really be effected on purpose. take care, and i'll see you in a moon.