0251: In intro and cog psych classes, they talk about how by paying
attention and showing enthusiam when the professor is on the left side of the
room, and showing disinterest and dismay when the professor is on the right of the
room, students in a lecture class can bit by bit get that professor to teach from the left corner of the
room without even realizing what he's doing. It's something we can all do to
shape behavior. Move to the left, and keep moving.
It's a very real problem when you
discover that you don't have use for someone who's not going away anytime soon but
of whom you can't dispose for a variety of reasons, some having to do with your
lack of
authority to regulate the matter, and others having to do with keeping your
surroundings healthy and free
of permanent hatred from important people. It's a problem when that someone
becomes so irksome you can barely exist in his or her presence, regardless of the
presence of so many wonderful others. But what do you do? I suppose you get over
your own issues... but maybe there are reasonable, non-petty and non-stupid
reasons for your issues. I mean, some people just don't make good friends, so why
should they try? Things to ponder...
FOUR--
1830: We got new computers behind the help desk, which means there
are also new keyboards, which urges me to type lots. Not that I have much
to say. Next semester I really need to pay attention to who will be at
the desk at the same time I am here, because right now I am working with
someone who has no inhibitions about asking me a billion questions all the
time. It was fine the first few weeks, but it's December, and people
should know things.
2112: Things that will lead to me burning the world-- 19-yr-old
Harvard students who can't do a simple job; bubbly, vapid,
intellectual-poser girls; small bladders; love correlated with
blood-alcohol content; early sunset; missing lunch with cool people;
glitter; lack of people present during my rare free time; people who are
attached; people who could be hooking up but are immature or chicken;
people who won't be humbled by their low status and lack of authority;
lack of artistry in slacking off; patheticness; brokenness; bandies
messing with photos; assholes using my office without asking; bandies
making unnecessary mess; computer users who ask stupid questions; User
Assistants who ask stupid questions; dirty computer mice; prospect of
discomfort where there should be fun. That's all for now.
TEN--
1428: All the important subjects will be avoided until the next
time we can't talk about them.
TWENTY-ONE--
0148: So, I'm at home now, using a computer that has been improved
since the last time I was here, but is still rather slow as far as typing
things and having them appear on the screen right away. But it's much
better. Today improved vastly upon coming home, not only for being home
and seeing my parents and meeting the new runt dog, but for finding out
that things I thought were in really bad shape were just misunderstood,
and I did a very good service to myself by just keeping my mouth shut
until I found out what was really going on. It's something I should maybe
try more often. It's nice to be away. Despite life maybe not being in
bad shape, it was certainyl still going through a very weird phase.
Vacation can gve weirdness time to be resolved. I hope everything does
get resolved. I hope I can get myself resolved. I'm pretty sure I know
what I feel and how I think I should act, but there are moments in which
that is just too hard. I feel too much. I need to find patience. I need
to find control. That latter bit is the hardest, because control is hard
to find in love and rage, and those things dominate me and elude my
domination. And now I'm just warbling to the breeze. It's time to
sleep.
So there's this Screw Your
Roommate thing I found out about on my way to work today, and let me tell
you, it amuses me to no end to consider the possible names I could put on
this web form. But I don't know if I have the gall.